Mookie

Organized chaos in a chalice of dreams.

With Me

I am really understanding more and more what it means to let people go. If someone wants to be in your life, then they will make the necessary efforts to attempt to be a part of it. Whether its just platonic or could possibly more, people make time for what they want to make time for.

I am over this hole trying to explain things to people, and trying to make people understand. I say what I want upfront. I don’t hide behind my emotions. Generally, I am straightforward about what I want, how I want it, and why I want it.

Still trying to figure out since when enjoying someones company meant more than just that. You can like spending time with someone and enjoy being in their presence, and it would never be anything more than that. God forbid you actually admit this though. Then everything goes astray, and next thing you know they think you want to skip through a green pasture holding hands and talking about love.

I am a woman of simplicity, and as it stands now, that L word scares me. The last time I was in love, I gave a big piece of me away and I am so not ready to travel down that path again. That means that I have to let someone completely into my life, and I also have to let them meet. Cydni Which is yet ANOTHER step that I am not ready for. For now I will just enjoy spending time with someone who actually enjoys spending time with me.

&& I’m Single

A lot of people fail to realize that being single isn’t always a bad thing. I enjoy being single. It gives you time to realize who you are and what you want out of your signifcant other.

People confuse being lonely with needing to be in a relationship. They try to fill voids dating people before they are truly ready to commit themselves to someone. Your partner should benefit you and be a strong source of support; you should never lose yourself to your relationship. Because when it ends, you lose sight of who you are without that person. Having your own independence can eventually land you someone special.

However, the wrong kind of independence can keep you alone. We understand that you don’t NEED someone, that you just WANT them. But don’t let your cocky independence push away someone who merely wants to compliment you throughout your endeavors.

I found myself lost a little over a year ago, and it has taken me all this time to find out who I am. I now know that there are a lot of things that I can not, and will not tolerate out of someone. I know that I DESERVE a lot better than what I had been settling for. Why should I be giving my heart and my time to someone that won’t be worth it in the end?

Until I can find someone that is worthy of being in my life as well as hers, Cydni will be the only one getting all of my affection.

Complaining Friends

I love my friends, I really do. But I am not the kind of person that likes giving out the same advice over and over again.

I myself am stubborn, but I try to take knowledge from my friends and make it into a solid foundation for certain decisions that I make.

Too many times have I tried talking to my friends and my words have fallen on deaf ears. I don’t talk just to hear myself talk, I talk so that you will LISTEN. Staying in relationships out of comfort, jumping into new ones because of loneliness, letting twitter get the best of us. 

I wish that everything could be right, so that there wouldn’t BE any complaints, and everyone could be on the same page. But unfortunately people will be who they are, and they choose what advice they want to take from you.

I am tired of my friends getting hurt, or being in relationships/partnerships that bring them down. But being the good friend that I am, I will always be there to pick up the pieces.

Verified

I feel the need to express myself beyond the character limitations that twitter offers.

I am confused as to why people feel the need to involve themselves in the middle of someone else’s business. It is a general understanding that twitter is for entertainment, correct? So why does everyone feel the need to constantly pass judgement on something that everyone else is doing?

If someone wants to tweet a certain way, than so be it. Why does it matter to you how someone acts as if they are or are not in a relationship on twitter? I was unaware that relationships had to be verified through the twitter servers. Has society really gotten to the point where people must include a detailed description of their significant other in their twitter bios, and dedicate a minimum of at least ten tweets a day to this person?

Are you in a relationship with this person? So why does it matter to you personally what their significant other tweets or says on a SOCIAL NETWORKING site. That defeats the purpose of having a twitter because that is EXACTLY what it is for: NETWORKING. I never feel the need to put myself in the middle of a friends relationship unless their partner is abusive or cheating. It is not my concern unless they make it my concern.

I am confused as to why it is okay for people to tweet and be slutty, but because you’re in a relationship, you can’t tweet like you’re single. At the end of the day, if you were really someone’s friend they wouldn’t have to explain anything to you. And if you DO have an issue with something, address the issue off of twitter. I thought that maybe we are all adults, but I could be mistaken.